MY BABY MY WORLD!
Saturday, April 22, 2006
22-4-06
8.54pm
my stomach wast feeling well since today morning *3 something*. at that time thougth was gastrick pain n force myself to sleep n dun think bout it.m lazy to go eat or drink* i din sleep well...feeling very tired n sleepy now...*yawn*...!!!!!
when to my dad office...used to go every sat to help them...n i keep on run to the toilet n release...during lunch time, i cant finish the rice tat i buy coz no appetite to eat.After lunch, continue with my work, that time i feeling so cold..(the air con is off)..i get sick...!!!!!!
my mom scold me n i feel so unhappy n my tears drop...i cant stand my tears..i miss my nanny so much and i unable to c her anymore..i feel very unuse that she is not beside me anymore...*sobs*...i noe i hv to accept the facts n b strong...i trying very very very hard...thank you my friend that support me...
my nanny is someone specials to my family..she take care 3 of us since we are small..my parents hv to work..she juz like my mom..she use to cook us half boiled egg before we go kindergarden...*yummy*!i remember when my parents come n fetch us back home..v wil hide behind my nanny n her husband cause we dun wan to go home..n they will protect us...miss the moment so much...when i was in primary school..cancer go to my nanny...after the operation she is getting beta but few years later...the cancer come back again...i feel so lost that time.. i dont know wat to do...i dun wan to lost her...almost every day v pay a visit to her house n talk to her...she look terminally ill sometimes and sometimes she feel very very good...before she left us i went to her house..looking at her..sit besides her n holding her hand...she still can recongnise me...n talk to me..but she look very very suffer...i start crying when v going to her house..she left us when i was in the college...actually that day, i dun feel like going to coll but force to go...when my mom tell me the new i cant stop my tears...she is still in my heart forever..:)
pei a...stay strong..take time to accept it...i noe u feel very unuse...i noe...but take time..cry out if u feel beta...cheers up...!!!!!!!!!!!!!;) hugss..hugss..
got to go rest...my stomach still pain...*ouch*...thank you my sifu...hugs..
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